The Break Up

If I were to start from the beginning,
I would tell you it started from my chest.
The pain that is.
It was like a heart attack,
Piercing my chest,
I was gasping for air,
Reading that text,
My eyes a silent a prayer,
I could not believe it was happening!
Just two months ago he said he loved me,
One month ago I’d say we were lovely.
Lovely together.
Lovely forever.

But this was a break up,
There wasn’t even a heads up!
And I watched as my heart barely held up.

All this happened in the span of a two hour conversation.
I was asking “why?” While he was breaking relations.
Giving excuses that did not satisfy
Saying words like, “I’m leaving you, so goodbye.”
Speechless, stunned, hurt, confused, and yet there were no tears
As I slowly realized I was facing my darkest fear.
I was the owner of a drowning heart.

“Heart overboard! Heart overboard!”
My brain screamed.
“Let him explain! Let him explain!”
Spoke my thoughts, but I could barely hear.
I could barely feel, I was barely here,
And for a couple of seconds, I saw time disappear.

My heart tried to scream an SOS
As the dreaded tear fell on my face, rolled on my cheeks, signalling the end.
But this was a break up,
There wasn’t even a heads up!
And I watched as my heart barely held up.

A few minutes later, it was done.
I was single, as in one.
No together, no forever.
No “us”, and definitely no “we”.
And when it hit me,
I did not wallow in self pity,
I got up, had dinner, and raised my heart to hope.
Hope to heal.
Hope to feel.
Hope to trust.
Hope to forget if I must.
Hope to love… Again.

And as I let myself hope, it hit me.
I was free.
The System had left me.
And as Legend has it,
“When you least perceive,
The System will leave.
You will only survive
When the Complete arrives.”

Tracy Eric writes… About a certain break up.

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One thought on “The Break Up

  1. Nice work Tracy…love this
    Especially the last part ν ½
    πŸ‘‡πŸ‘‡
    And as I let myself hope, it hit me.
    I was free.
    The System had left me.
    And as Legend has it,
    β€œWhen you least perceive,
    The System will leave.
    You will only survive
    When the Complete arrives.”

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